i usually never write on here unless it’s an occasional poem but i’m going to change it up tonight. now i know no one cares but i will speak my piece of mind and be gone.

see, things were absolutely amazing in the beginning.. which i guess things usually are.. but then it just got real bad suddenly and i don’t know how it happened but i wish it didn’t. because now, a few months later, i still feel the same about this person. and everywhere i turn there’s something there to remind me of our memories or just that person in general. and of course being a human, i sit around when i’m lonely, or even with a crowd of people, daytime or at night and just think about everything. it just sucks. because i know how i feel for sure but you know idk about them for sure. it’s not always the best to have these high expectations for something or someone, but i did.. i really did have such high expectations, and you know a part of me kind of still does and a little part still won’t let go. i would do it all over again.. idk why, or what it is about that person besides i care so much for them and love them. love is a big four letter word but i’m positive with every letter and the little space in between that’s what i have. it’ll always be there, because when you love someone for real it just doesn’t stop and go away.. and i don’t care if they don’t want it or don’t need it or any of that because it’s staying. it’s hard trying to resist to talk to that person when that’s all you can think about or want to do. i miss it. i want to say a lot, all the time, but it’s not best. it’s best i stay away i guess, and i want what’s best for them.. but that’s all i should say, for now. goodnight.

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